Dreaming big, creating our reality

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the pace of my life. I find myself caught up in the contradicting thoughts of I should be doing more... there is no rush.... and what do other people think?

I’ve had a lot of free time this past year. I've moved around a lot. I've been freelancing and working jobs where for the most part I've been able to create my own schedule. I oscillate between deep gratitude for this flow and concern that I’m falling behind.

Some days people tell me that I am doing it all right, that I shouldn't rush into a certain career, and that I should take time to find myself. Other times I feel an undercurrent of pressure to make money, to make a name for myself.

It is a practice of love to come back to myself. To shed those comparisons and self-doubts. To remind myself that being right here right now is enough. To know that each of us is on our own divine path.

So, I sit and ask myself what kind of life do I want to live? In what ways am I already living it? How can I challenge myself to live more in alignment with my values?

I invoke the power of my imagination and let myself dream. I think of all the elements that make life beautiful, purposeful, and fulfilling. I close my eyes and picture

a garden and a big tree with a tree swing,

sharing a feast with friends

time each morning to read and write.

Smiling to myself, I realize the ways in which ways my current pace aligns with some of my dreams. I am making time to read and write. There is a garden collective nearby where I can start volunteering. I get to spend much of my days outside.

Then, I can get to work meditating and acting upon how to live in even more alignment with my values.

I'll sign up for farm yoga so I can grow my sense of community!

This week I will cook a new vegetarian recipe to share.

I can pitch more story ideas and keep stoking my passion for writing.

We are the designers of our lives! Brainstorming ways to lead my dream life sprouts from the seeds of holding space to dream, knowing that my dreams will come to fruition.

This is how I create my reality.

I was an imaginative kid living in a land of fairies and potions. Five-year-old me didn't doubt the pace by which she danced through life. She didn't operate by "can't" or "should." That younger version of me was so free and wild in herself and she lives in me still. My inner child tugs at my heart, and helps me to do the sometimes weird, brave, and forgotten things, prompting me to rewild my spirit. (Does anyone else feel this tug of war between inner spirit and external norms and demands?)

This month I am starting to settle into a new routine. Writing, baking, working in a restaurant, jumping in the ocean. My intentions are to keep a pace that allows me to reach my creative and financial goals while living in alignment with my deepest values:

Peace by reading, going on sunset walks, lighting candles, and practicing yoga.

Adventure through surfing and hiking and trying new things like baking bread and photography.

Prosperity by working and saving money and calling in abundance!

Connection in spending time with family and branching out to form community.

Self-growth by listening to podcasts like On Being and We Can Do Hard Things, practicing my Spanish, and focusing on the stories I want to tell here on Rewilding Child.

What kind of life do you want to live?

What are your dreams? What stories do you tell yourself about what is realistic or possible? What walls can you break down? How can you honor your inner spirit?

What would happen if we were to hold more conversations about awakening our inner spirit? How would it feel to tell ourselves every day that we can make efforts to create our reality to the best of our abilities? What magic will unfold when we do?

// Rewilding Child